I'm not really sure how to start this blog or for that matter where it is going to go but it is my responsibility and a requirement that I have not been maintaining and as a result I have installed doubt in my peers and those above me as to whether I am training or not or meeting my requirements. This must be repaired before it is too late, or perhaps it may already be too late. Either way all I can do is tell you what has been going on.
Lots has been going on, everyday in regards to my Kung Fu. Just because you haven't seen me, doesn't mean nothing is happening. This doesn't mean I have quit. Yes I have had some issues, lots of them, and I can assure you they are not excuses, they are what's happening, they are life. None of which have stopped me, they slowed me down, but I never quit. I train with passion and heart all the time, there is no sub standard acceptance and I never think anything is good enough. I am no stranger to mastery and what it takes. The sacrifices, the blood, sweat and tears, the mistakes and the triumphs. The drive and the pain and the ability to adapt and overcome. Once this is installed in your life, it never leaves you. It only leaves you if you let it or never welcome it in the first place. Everyone's journey is unique and you are going to run into several perspectives, none of which are golden, except one part, yes or no. Simple right? or it at least it should be.
I sometimes have the tendency to venture off on my own. It's not that I run away from things, I run from nothing. There are times where I like to be by myself, doing what I love to do and be in the moment. This is how I sort things out and stay focused. I am a private person and it's not really that I don't care or I turn my back on commitments. This couldn't be farther from the truth. All that has been told to me, shown to me, and words of encouragment are all something I hold close and respect. I guess ultimately this wouldn't be such a big deal if I just shared what's happening once a week. It wouldn't be so questionable if you seen or heard something from me. I have made several public statements, many of which are or have happened, yet nobody on the I Ho Chuan or the kwoon has seen or heard any action or for that matter anything. Other things have not happened and have come off as lip service, that is something I have to repair and make right. That is some thing that I have to live with. It does leave a sting, as I am the type of person that always folows through on what I say I am going to do. I understand I have let people down as a result, so for the next while that's all you are going to see and hear, exactly what I am doing. I haven't forgotten my goals or what I have set out to do. I haven't forgotten I am on a team and I am needed. I havent forgotten that I am to meet a standard that must be approved by those before me. I haven't forgotten a damn thing. I have always been there, just traveling from a distance. I try to respond to all posts and comment or at least give a +1 to let everyone know I'm out there, I read your stuff, and I support you, instead of just leaving people hanging there like a jerk. I am sorry if I have been a bad team mate and I meant no disrespect to anyone. I will make this right, but actions speak louder than words. So buckle up, watch and learn. I will prove to you all I have what it takes and then some. See you (very soon) at the kwoon.
