Well another year of pursuing mastery and all my tools and goals are a scattered mess on the floor and I'm not sure where to start picking the pieces up. Things change quick sometimes and other things change so slow you don't even notice. This years intention seems to be hiding from me and is not providing any clues as to where it might be heading or hiding for that matter. So many distractions are a part of my being, always have been, but there was never an issue hunting down a target and being committed and focused to achieve the goal or reach the destiny. As it sits right now I feel like I'm standing in the middle of an open field and I can't see a damn thing.
As of late everything just fell away because the only thing that mattered to me was my girls. We never saw it coming because we took every single pre caution necessary for a year now. Everything we were told to do, we did. Vigilance never relaxed in our home. We carried on just like we were supposed to. I've been all over this province for the last year maintaining the resistance and not succumb, as has my wife and daughter. We were living our lives as normal as we could during these times. Next thing you know, my daughter has Covid and the virus found it's way into our home.
The news my daughter tested positive hit me hard. I couldn't sleep that night. Every single noise woke me up, listening for a cough or cry for help, anything. Looking at how sick she was opened up the realities for sure. So I went and had test done, negative. But because I was in close contact, mandatory 14 day quarantine...dammit. Masked up in the house, sterilizing everything in site, and washing my hands to the point of raw. 2 days later my wife got it, now both isolated to their rooms and me to the downstairs. My wife was sick, like really sick. Now's not the time to be weak and self centered about the whole thing....or anything for that matter. If this virus wants to fight, no problem, it picked the wrong family....we are going to mess it up ugly.
So I worked throughout the days from home, taking care of my girls was the only thing that really mattered to me. I really struggled at times, watching the news, reading the papers, watching all these stupid dipshits running around with no masks, gathering in groups, saying it's all a hoax. Spreading the virus around, killing our elderly and infecting others through self centered ignorance. It was hard to not wish this virus killed the stupid, they are at the end of their gene pool anyway, no hope for evolution here as it's reached the end. I honestly thought at the time we would be much better off if that were the case. I guess it doesn't really make me that much better in the whole scheme of things, but it sure helped me maintain a position of strength and focus. We all use different tools to succeed I guess.
Fortunately I saw the life come back to my daughter day by day, at times hour by hour. The smile, the color, the smart ass wit...nice. One down, one to go. A few days later my wife started to come around. A huge wave of relief came over me last night when I heard that patented laugh that comes from my wife when she is truly happy. It looks as though we have reached the end of the war on the intruder and I am truly grateful. I'm still feeling good, but who knows, that's the treachery of this enemy, it could be in your presence and you don't even know it. I'll get tested this week and if all is well our lives will continue as they once were a little over a week and a half ago.
One thing is for certain, this gave me the opportunity I needed to remind myself why I train and why I keep fighting to keep Kung Fu front and center. Why I don't give up. How I am reminded of it's tenacity to stay a part of me and the power it instills even though I am not aware of it all the time. This moment gave me some clarity and reason, another hidden opportunity, as to what I need to do get back on track and find a new path to cut. I've reached a point where all I need to see here is done, time to move on. Time to gather different tools and pursue a new environment, a new challenge and end game that must be a good distance away, but short, sometimes hidden goals as well to keep things in check. The past can do nothing further and the future is unknown.
So what does this have to do with Kung Fu? Everything. The drop of a hat things can change our lives. The drive to power and think through this and take on the leadership and challenge when facing risk for the better of others is martial arts. To see this as opportunity to strengthen ones position and impose defeat on a challenge while remaining committed and focused is martial arts. To reach depths of the inner soul and extract the knowledge and apply it and share the wisdom with others is martial arts. I'm starting to see a lot more things in the field now, best move along and start the journey....the path won't cut itself and mastery waits for no one.
