50 p/u
50 s/u
Didn't really get much done today as far as training goes. I spent the day with my little one after I got back from helping at the kwoon. She is sick and needed some cheering up. So I guess overall this would be considered a rest day.
Saturday, 21 September 2013
September 20, 2013
Fell asleep last night before I could post yesterdays training, so here it is.
100 p/u
100 s/u
15 sais form
Held a door for 2 people, told a person that doesn't work with me that he was doing a good job.
Attended practice last night and did my sais form so Sifu Wetter could time it. Don't ask me why but I can do my form over and over at home or even in the class with out too many mistakes or dropping my weapon. But once I get in front of a bunch of Sifus and others something always seems to mess up. I can flip my sais 100 times in a row at home without it hitting the ground, get in front of people on a dry demo run and bang, it hits the floor or a technique is not complete. To me it gives off the impression that you are not practicing and you are not demo ready. I am going to keep doing weapon forms daily, which really we should be anyway to stay on track for the requirement and to be ready. I think being away from the kwoon for a while has not helped either in regards to performing in front of others as well. I am going to be able to attend regular classes this week and am looking forward to it.
100 p/u
100 s/u
15 sais form
Held a door for 2 people, told a person that doesn't work with me that he was doing a good job.
Attended practice last night and did my sais form so Sifu Wetter could time it. Don't ask me why but I can do my form over and over at home or even in the class with out too many mistakes or dropping my weapon. But once I get in front of a bunch of Sifus and others something always seems to mess up. I can flip my sais 100 times in a row at home without it hitting the ground, get in front of people on a dry demo run and bang, it hits the floor or a technique is not complete. To me it gives off the impression that you are not practicing and you are not demo ready. I am going to keep doing weapon forms daily, which really we should be anyway to stay on track for the requirement and to be ready. I think being away from the kwoon for a while has not helped either in regards to performing in front of others as well. I am going to be able to attend regular classes this week and am looking forward to it.
Thursday, 19 September 2013
September 19, 2013
150 p/u
150 s/u
10 weapon form
Shared my lunch with a fellow worker that didn't have much, held the door for 3 people, let a person through a busy intersection.
Still trying to get the motivation to do something as soon as I get up in the morning, not a morning person at all. But the sooner I can install this into some kind of structure the better. I was thinking today about how to get the mindset through my stubborness to create one that will work for me. I absolutely have to get this going but sometimes I am the hardest person to convince myself. If that makes any sense. I thought to myself a class is 60 mins long. Out of that 60 minutes, 45 of that is actual training. I have driven myself hard in that time in most classes. So 45 mins out of 24 hours shouldn't be that difficult to take for my Kung Fu in a day. But for some reason it seems to be a puzzle that I just can't solve. Although if I keep on top of my game , it will happen. Small steps I guess.
150 s/u
10 weapon form
Shared my lunch with a fellow worker that didn't have much, held the door for 3 people, let a person through a busy intersection.
Still trying to get the motivation to do something as soon as I get up in the morning, not a morning person at all. But the sooner I can install this into some kind of structure the better. I was thinking today about how to get the mindset through my stubborness to create one that will work for me. I absolutely have to get this going but sometimes I am the hardest person to convince myself. If that makes any sense. I thought to myself a class is 60 mins long. Out of that 60 minutes, 45 of that is actual training. I have driven myself hard in that time in most classes. So 45 mins out of 24 hours shouldn't be that difficult to take for my Kung Fu in a day. But for some reason it seems to be a puzzle that I just can't solve. Although if I keep on top of my game , it will happen. Small steps I guess.
Wednesday, 18 September 2013
September 18, 2013
100 p/u
100 cantilever s/u 4 sets of 25
Long 1&2 5 reps
6 sais form
10 km biked
40 thrust kicks
Wasn't nice today I guess, I don't recall anything.
As I was doing sit ups tonight I was paying attention to what muscles were talking to me. This style of sit up I have been doing is working all different types of muscles but I really noticed three working areas, abs, back muscles, and the front of the hips. I have never really noticed this muscle (in the hips) area being worked before so I am going to stick with this style for the next while to balance and strengthen my core all at once, better muscle building and time use efficiancy perhaps. We'll see what happens.
Still working on pieces of my weapon form and slowing down the reps to get it all to flow together now that I have disected a few areas.
100 cantilever s/u 4 sets of 25
Long 1&2 5 reps
6 sais form
10 km biked
40 thrust kicks
Wasn't nice today I guess, I don't recall anything.
As I was doing sit ups tonight I was paying attention to what muscles were talking to me. This style of sit up I have been doing is working all different types of muscles but I really noticed three working areas, abs, back muscles, and the front of the hips. I have never really noticed this muscle (in the hips) area being worked before so I am going to stick with this style for the next while to balance and strengthen my core all at once, better muscle building and time use efficiancy perhaps. We'll see what happens.
Still working on pieces of my weapon form and slowing down the reps to get it all to flow together now that I have disected a few areas.
Tuesday, 17 September 2013
September 17, 2013
150 p/u
150 s/u
6 weapon form
Held the door for someone, offered a person my chair, twisted over a piece of rebar sticking out of a parking curb ready to skew someone by the kwoon, took my daughter out to eat after her Kung Fu class tonight.
Worked on sections of sais form tonight. Trying to smooth out some parts that still have a little catch when trying to make things flow. Some tweeking. I am going to try to use the hours of the day more efficiantly, like in the morning. This should be interesting thats for sure. Keep you posted.
150 s/u
6 weapon form
Held the door for someone, offered a person my chair, twisted over a piece of rebar sticking out of a parking curb ready to skew someone by the kwoon, took my daughter out to eat after her Kung Fu class tonight.
Worked on sections of sais form tonight. Trying to smooth out some parts that still have a little catch when trying to make things flow. Some tweeking. I am going to try to use the hours of the day more efficiantly, like in the morning. This should be interesting thats for sure. Keep you posted.
Monday, 16 September 2013
Operation Restart under way
Last Friday I had the opportunity to attend the I Ho Chuan class and although it was from the bench it had an impact. There was things mentioned that helped put some missing pieces back in they're place and create a better view. Another thing that really helped was to put down the axe and ask a friend to listen and to offer some words and a perspective other than your own that is straight up, no bullshit. I never like asking friends for help because I have always felt out of respect and being grateful for that person, you shouldn't, unless you absolutely have to. Well I had too, and I'm glad I did. Lots has been going on all over but things are calming down and its time to get back to where I need and should be at this time in my training. I am no good at all about recording my numbers consistently, completely suck at it. In order to help this I said a while back I was going to put my numbers on my blog and give a transparent view of what's happening. I dropped the ball on that one but I do have my reasons and there is a lot to it. But its also time to put my money where my mouth is. I do accomplish something everyday, but how would anyone know unless you prove it. Problems! A few yes. Some I will share on another blog, others, forget it. But the main reason I let my training get so out of a control and sporadic was not to train without the mindset and the dumping of all other things and to take that time that everyone needs. Somewhere along the way I lost my way and then back on the path and then ventured way out again. So I am going to try it again and post my numbers daily and what I am doing. It worked very well last time so this is something I need to prove to myself that I can maintain. Also to everyone on the team.
One last note that I must speak openly about is the announcement by Sihing Lowery. I completely respect her decision and will stand behind one of our teammates solid, but that doesn't mean I have to like it. I also picture Sihing Lowery saying a famous movie quote from the movie terminator. I will keep that hope anyway.
100 p/u
50 regular sittups, 50 cantilevered style in two sets
15 sais form reps
biked 7 km
20 side heel kicks
10 squat thrusts
Let someone in traffic twice, picked up garbage in my alley.
One last note that I must speak openly about is the announcement by Sihing Lowery. I completely respect her decision and will stand behind one of our teammates solid, but that doesn't mean I have to like it. I also picture Sihing Lowery saying a famous movie quote from the movie terminator. I will keep that hope anyway.
100 p/u
50 regular sittups, 50 cantilevered style in two sets
15 sais form reps
biked 7 km
20 side heel kicks
10 squat thrusts
Let someone in traffic twice, picked up garbage in my alley.
Tuesday, 20 August 2013
I just sat down and stared at stuff
Going into this year I had it all planned out. I could see the next leg of my journey on the road to mastery and many landmarks along the way to guide me through the cliffs that would need scaling, the deep valleys, raging rivers, and the thickest jungle man has ever endured. I was creating a single path with my family, my work, and my Kung Fu all in tow. This was going to be the greatest evolution of all aspects of my life. I was challenged with the constant pulling in all directions at work and pulling through with confidence and grace. My girls were are all doing awesome and I couldn't be more proud. Kung Fu was really coming together on all fronts and I couldn't wait to make that escape and train to whatever I wanted to do with a seemingly endless supply of details I had missed along the way and new discoveries. I just said bring it on and I will fight it to exhaustion. Careful what you wish for.
This year has been a fight. It probably wouldn't have ended up that way, but I let things take the wheel of my ride. Something that I never let happen. I became so obsessed with the challenge of work and my ethics of nothing is ever too much and I will take on anything that is thrown at me. My days got longer and I was working with people that expected more from me. Okay cool I am practicing mastery in my trade so this is my Kung Fu serving me. Not really noticing I was putting in the work of three people. Up at 5:00 in the morning and dragging my sorry ass in the house at 8:00 at night, everyday and all day. Giving my little one a smooch and tucking her in. Visiting with Erica for an hour and heading out to the garage or catching up on whatever I could, when I could. Doing whatever training I could and crashing. After being on this routine for months on end, it was starting to grind on me. Usually asleep before my head hit the pillow or not even making it to bed if I stopped to sit down for a minute. Seeing the absence of my presence in my youngest daughters eyes and the face of frustration in my wifes, was not helping. Although my girls supported me the whole time, I wasn't feeling to good about it. Leaving my team to carry my absence and having more difficulty to even show up to class. Any classes for that matter. Falling further and further behind in my numbers and growing more and more negative as the days go by. Trying to find the landmarks to guide me through have now disappeared. Blinded by the thickest brush, I could no longer rip them out. Looking behind me I could plainly see that I was now creating three paths instead of one. Everything that is close to me is now segregated. Looking at the hours I put in this year so far is somewhere around the 2500 mark, so even daily training was becoming very little. I did always accomplish something, but stopped recording it on my blog or writing it down. As people when we start to become overwhelmed, we look for sources to lay blame. I started to dislike work and the people I work under. I wanted my girls to take a trip some where. I have been guilty of shooting my mouth off outside the kwoon, blaming the I Ho Chuan program and installing the mindset of this is unreasonable and how the hell can anyone pull this off successfully and still maintain. My journaling went to the wayside, AGAIN. Shortly after my last blog I had enough. I just sat down and stared. Mentally and physically exhausted. I wanted to quit my job, step down from the I Ho Chuan program and do.... I didn't know. So what ended up happening is I went on a trip with my family through southern Alberta into B.C, and back through Nordegg to Rocky Mountain House. It gave me a lot of time to look at things and just chill. One night staring into a fire I built that the gods could see, I sorted it all out. I went back to my roots and devised a plan to get back on track and grab the drivers seat back. Quiting is for sheeple, not the driven. I was sick and tired of letting life take the wheel. You have to handle your life, not let your life handle you. Regretting ever verbally bitching about the I Ho Chuan program and putting my negativity on others. I felt foolish. I am sorry to anyone I may have had this effect on and I meant no disrespect to anyone. Just selfish venting I guess.I have no intention of being a career Sihing and as I have said before, the longer you stay away from the kwoon, the more of a damaging effect it has once you have placed it into your soul. It's time to come home. So after all of that I am now traveling as one again, one path with all I hold close. Changing my priorities to Family, Kung Fu, and work. I have started to train again on a daily basis and my love for the I Ho Chuan is restored. It is not a sentence, but an enhancement. Work is work. I have tons of experience and am highly skilled enough to always find work. I will carry on as I always have. Bring it on. Sorry for the book I just wrote but I felt it was necessary out of respect for the team and to share a challenge I had to get through. See you at the kwoon.
Brian Chervenka
This year has been a fight. It probably wouldn't have ended up that way, but I let things take the wheel of my ride. Something that I never let happen. I became so obsessed with the challenge of work and my ethics of nothing is ever too much and I will take on anything that is thrown at me. My days got longer and I was working with people that expected more from me. Okay cool I am practicing mastery in my trade so this is my Kung Fu serving me. Not really noticing I was putting in the work of three people. Up at 5:00 in the morning and dragging my sorry ass in the house at 8:00 at night, everyday and all day. Giving my little one a smooch and tucking her in. Visiting with Erica for an hour and heading out to the garage or catching up on whatever I could, when I could. Doing whatever training I could and crashing. After being on this routine for months on end, it was starting to grind on me. Usually asleep before my head hit the pillow or not even making it to bed if I stopped to sit down for a minute. Seeing the absence of my presence in my youngest daughters eyes and the face of frustration in my wifes, was not helping. Although my girls supported me the whole time, I wasn't feeling to good about it. Leaving my team to carry my absence and having more difficulty to even show up to class. Any classes for that matter. Falling further and further behind in my numbers and growing more and more negative as the days go by. Trying to find the landmarks to guide me through have now disappeared. Blinded by the thickest brush, I could no longer rip them out. Looking behind me I could plainly see that I was now creating three paths instead of one. Everything that is close to me is now segregated. Looking at the hours I put in this year so far is somewhere around the 2500 mark, so even daily training was becoming very little. I did always accomplish something, but stopped recording it on my blog or writing it down. As people when we start to become overwhelmed, we look for sources to lay blame. I started to dislike work and the people I work under. I wanted my girls to take a trip some where. I have been guilty of shooting my mouth off outside the kwoon, blaming the I Ho Chuan program and installing the mindset of this is unreasonable and how the hell can anyone pull this off successfully and still maintain. My journaling went to the wayside, AGAIN. Shortly after my last blog I had enough. I just sat down and stared. Mentally and physically exhausted. I wanted to quit my job, step down from the I Ho Chuan program and do.... I didn't know. So what ended up happening is I went on a trip with my family through southern Alberta into B.C, and back through Nordegg to Rocky Mountain House. It gave me a lot of time to look at things and just chill. One night staring into a fire I built that the gods could see, I sorted it all out. I went back to my roots and devised a plan to get back on track and grab the drivers seat back. Quiting is for sheeple, not the driven. I was sick and tired of letting life take the wheel. You have to handle your life, not let your life handle you. Regretting ever verbally bitching about the I Ho Chuan program and putting my negativity on others. I felt foolish. I am sorry to anyone I may have had this effect on and I meant no disrespect to anyone. Just selfish venting I guess.I have no intention of being a career Sihing and as I have said before, the longer you stay away from the kwoon, the more of a damaging effect it has once you have placed it into your soul. It's time to come home. So after all of that I am now traveling as one again, one path with all I hold close. Changing my priorities to Family, Kung Fu, and work. I have started to train again on a daily basis and my love for the I Ho Chuan is restored. It is not a sentence, but an enhancement. Work is work. I have tons of experience and am highly skilled enough to always find work. I will carry on as I always have. Bring it on. Sorry for the book I just wrote but I felt it was necessary out of respect for the team and to share a challenge I had to get through. See you at the kwoon.
Brian Chervenka
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