Stuck at the crossroads of a Kung Fu journey

I am in a position of as late that has kind of stopped me in my tracks regarding my training in where I'm at and what I am doing. I don't like to use the words busy, I prefer to use full. I am very full right now, on all aspects of my life. At least thats what I thought. The problem lies in my journey. I ran out of a prepared path I laid out long ago and now I have to layout a path two to three years ahead in order to continue on my journey with a more advanced approach. I like to look way ahead and actually visualize where I am heading and see myself there. Where I want to be regarding my life and my kung Fu. I tend to look way ahead and take the time so I can approach things in detail and move along patiently in order to build a rock solid knowledge and base. This way advancement remains calm and I always have a plan or I can pull out a life tool that I have in my arsenal and move along cutting a solid and indestructible path that will stay forever and leave behind a path for others to follow if they choose. That will never falter but can always be revised form a solid base. In other words, all of my life tools are forged from a composition of understanding and knowledge from witnessing what works and what doesn't through others and myself. Too embrace the masters and absorb  what they are willing to share and how far I am willing to expand and work through my comfort zones. I have installed many challenges and goals that will require sacrifices and a life change, all for the better of course  as I begin on my discipline of destination which has worked very well for me all through out my life.

After earning the promotion of Sihing many things changed in regards to my training. I no longer have the luxury of having a black belt to teach me twice a week in a structured class. My training is no longer laid out for me and there are areas in my curriculum that I am told to study and practice in order to successfully earn that stripe. The stripe now has become a belt. The bottom line is that however it is I am going to proceed to this next level is entirely up to me. I am not going to take a year off and kill the momentum, I can't just shut it off and expect to turn it on again with the same level of inspiration and determination I have at this moment, next year or the year after. It won't happen. But this looking ahead has kind of thrown me off of the path regarding my I Ho Chuan requirements for year of the dragon. I have already jumped way ahead into year of the snake where I plan to test and earn a black belt. Its hard for me step back and continue where I left off because to me I have already covered that distance, but in reality I have to pick up where I left off because that is unfinished business and sooner or later I will have to back track and finish what I started or its fake or a valuable component is left behind that will be required in the future is not there. I am still working steadily at my requirements. Some days good, some days not so good. I have to restore my thoughts and focus on what is in the present in order to plan the future and be successful in all aspects of my life, whether it be my family, career, or my Kung Fu. I can see me there, I just have to figure out which turn to take or do I keep straight ahead. Once this simple, but important decision is made, I can move forward and connect those last few dots on my life map and continue with the right mindset and focus.

Brian Chervenka