Closer to the mayhem in motion

So lately I have been putting time into my weapon in an effort to create a form that I can perform for the class this Friday and start accumulating some recordable reps. Those of you that are training this year with a long weapon know all to well about the challenges and frustrations involving space to train. Not to mention that right now it's still difficult to get outside. I tried tonight but the ground is mush, so the garage and basement have been working fairly well. So far I have only broken a few things. Training in this confinement has added a better awareness for weapon range to hand placement and I am starting to get more comfortable about practicing inside. I see this as a realistic comparison to real life situations where adaptability was survival. I'm sure no one said, "Yah I'll hack you up in the spring because it's too cold out right now!" or  "Oh sorry man you have to pick someone else to fight in here, my weapons too long"

As of tonight though I have found a sequence that I think will be a good base for this weapon form. Although I had lot's of ideas, combining them into flow and choosing stances has been difficult. I've taken pieces out of other pieces and added to others in order to make directional transitions flow into one another. This weapon is not something you can just hit the brakes on once you unleash the momentum. This momentum which enables the weapon to achieve devastating blows, can also leave you very vulnerable to attack if you don't follow through wisely. Like tying yourself up and exposing your back. Aside from this things are moving along steady. Sometimes really well, other times not so well.
 I am struggling a lot with writing things down. I am getting in some consistent  but scattered reps, but they don't mean squat if they're not recorded. Pretty dumb if you think about it. For someone with very limited time and every minute counts, this tool should be in first place. I guess this goes to the tool vs hoop perspective that I need to quit messing around with and just do it. Do I want to achieve this years goals or do I want to be a failure?  See you at the kwoon.