Thought Triggers

It's interesting how an event can trigger all kinds of thoughts and clarity. Especially when that clarity leaves a mark that let's everyone know, yes, your human and also an idiot. Nobody likes to wear a scar as a scoreboard for all your stupid moments...I'm covered in them.

My newest scar count comes in the form of my first ever cut to the bone.... I know because I could see it perfectly. It was like a sectional view of your finger. When it happened I was so mad, not for being cut, but the complacency of not respecting events that can have life altering change that could have been prevented. Of course accidents happen, but that's not the point or what made me realize I had way too many things going on in the mind at once. I mean we do this all the time as humans, but I think we get too wrapped up in too many things and really don't respect the moment when our actions can have permanent or lasting effects on ourselves and others. That being said, you also can't forget the knowledge and lessons that we take for granted everyday.

The first thing that went through my mind was @#$%#$#%%^&&(*^%$%%$!!!!!, and then I thought I cut the tendons. Checked, and finger moves the same as before....it's just really red and I think I need stitches. I was really lucky, stitches are a cake walk, permanent damage isn't.

For me it was a lesson in keeping your thoughts organized and keeping respect to your core values and actions, not to mention the shared knowledge and respect of others. I think just how a person needs to be aware of your surroundings at all times. It reminded me of valuable knife defence techniques and attacks are part of my training and the theory behind them.  It made me feel very grateful for my training. After I saw what my knife did to me in a short distance, imagine what full power would do. It made me realize how valuable those really cool things we do all the time but take for granted. Like buttoning up your clothes, being able to wash yourself, push ups, swinging a weapon etc. It gave me a little reminder of what life would be like with a part of your body that no longer works. Even if it was only a bad cut, I realize that life is good and being able to do things on our own and with our loved ones, can disappear in a flash for one mindless event. See you at the kwoon.