Current Status

The last little while has been going well in regards to my quest for Year of the Pig awesomeness, with a couple things that needed to be addressed of course as it is never perfect and never will be. I've still just been coasting along doing my daily thing and not putting too much thought into it really, less self yack, more smack. Well completely no thought is impossible, but just more less paying attention to detail. I'm posting another quick journal because I missed a week....and I didn't even realize it, mostly because I caught some wack job virus that has really knocked the crap out of me but I continued on with priorities at work and I was out of town breifly.

Now this was and is a good thing because I caught myself slipping into my old habits of not keeping my Kung Fu moving along with me. Yes I was busy and not feeling well but I am working towards not allowing the justification of excuses or the distractions that seem to come along and take over my journey this time around. I realized at the beginning of the year that things needed to change and in order to achieve change, you have to maintain control of your plans. But you still allow yourself the ability to steer around those obstacles and leave the emotions out. For me at this time, it's all business. I can basque in the glory once I get the wheels of excellence rolling in the most basic format I can that suits me and my situations. That's the goal anyway, I just want to train and enjoy it no matter the circumstances and prioritize my training in a manageable way because I really don't want to lose it.

Physically things are coming along nicely, adding a little more day by day and resting accordingly. Mindless effort has done wonders really in regards to my forms and the neat fact is, the less I think about it, the more of those little things I seem to catch because I can feel them as I go. Stop, do a little adjustment and apply it through a few reps and the issue seems to go away. My weapon form is coming along in pieces basically. Trying to mold it all together to flow well and make it practical is always a challenge but I'm not that far off and have a version 1.0 ready to go. Loa Gar is well...Loa Gar....I really like this style and at the moment we are working on it quite a bit in Black Belt class so that's an unexpected bonus for sure. I'm doing school form reps fairly consistently which is very important as there is so much there that applies to all of our Kung Fu that can be lost if you don't keep it up.

 Mentally I'm feeling pretty good and training in a more valuable approach which has done me a lot of good. The only thing that concerns me a bit is my work schedule is about to go into hyper drive which usually kicks me off of my plan. Mainly because I let it, and make all kinds of justifications as to why I can't or how the system doesn't work for me. Honestly though my work schedules do pose a serious challenge, it's so hit and miss, long hours and unpredictable days seem to be a huge part of it as well. But this is my jungle and nobody is forcing me to do it. Adapting is key, which isn't really a problem for me when my hearts in it and the focus is there...I take care of business and take care of it with my signature of quality, no matter what it may take. But this is where things can and do go to absolute crap for me. Suddenly imperative task focus takes precedence over everything until it's done, but everything else that is supposed to move along with that focus and other personal benefits become less important. When this happens I have to start all over again or pick up where I left off and that isn't always so easy. I think when your intensity and focus get jumped around so much, you begin to lose the things that are a important component to you. You have this misconception that just because you can do things well and see them through, respect them, they will always be there. To a strong degree that's probably true if it really is part of us, it never leaves. But if you don't maintain those important things they can break down and disappear. Without the focus and discipline they will disappear and you don't even realize it. I don't want to go there, so that's why I'm here and the focus is mainly self improvement and restoration to what's important to me and my well being, my Kung Fu. I need to put my heart into everything, not just what's bright and shiny in front of me. See you at the Kwoon.