Until it's Gone

Sometimes perhaps, you don't really realize the benefits of something or recognize it's value until you neglect it or walk away from it. Taking things for granted or just assuming it will always be there, although not always intentional, is a habit everybody seems to have from time to time. The surprising thing is that most of the time the things we tend to take for granted or neglect was some of the most difficult things to accomplish and the most work to obtain in the first place. Even if it is not part of your character or ethics or morals. The thing is if you don't respect yourself and your journey and keep those things close, sometimes you never get them back. For me it was coming back to training that made me realize this and I feel more focused and engaged than I have for some time, it feels like I never left, but my Kung Fu at the moment might say something else. That being said, I was very lucky.

I 'm so pumped now to come to class and see my teachers and others I have trained with over the years, but there is much more to this and the ripple effect this kind of realization can have. I started making regular appointments with my reflexologist, I started to be more conscious of my fuel intake, making time for training is more of a priority than anything right now. This is all a great start to taking back what is mine and removing the things that swayed me in the first place. These things can be sneaky and other times attitude plays a huge role in all of this. I'll be the first to admit, I'm stubborn as hell, I don't really embrace change sometimes, and some people I just flat out don't like..period. This is who I am but I find the more I train, the more my Kung Fu is a larger priority in my life, the easier it is to be more understanding of change and seeing the other side of people. I become a much more balanced and empathetic person towards situations and others, but most importantly myself. So long answer short, if I'm not training I become a major %$hole..period.

So my weapon form is moving along well, I'm in the process right now of building the sequence and piecing together a battle in my head. I have have incorporated a Tiger kick which has been become a task in itself, but once I get this down and add in a couple of techniques I was taught during a boot camp years ago, my version 1.0 should be completed by the 28th. Loa Gar is giving me some grief as I have been using the wrong stance in some areas for quite some time now and muscle memory is never easy to rewrite. Regular routine isn't one of my stronger points either but so far it's coming along well as I am not trying to layout someone else's challenge to my liking, just doing it how it is laid out and adapting along the way one day at a time. See you at the Kwoon.