Stage 2, Rev 1

Stage 1 of my years layout never really panned out and stage 2 is already lagging behind. As far as goals reached for February I came up short on just about everything except distance. I managed to walk a total of 60 km and did achieve 37 weapon form reps and 24 of each school form reps. I only achieved a solid 3 min horse stance with bean bags. This all came before I injured myself. I look at this is good though because I did all of this in a short period of time with the exception of the distance. I have been using an app on my phone to track my distance and this also helps to keep me moving. A while back I seen just everyday walking not really eligible to count towards your distance goal. But when you run out of training options you have to find something to work towards and get something done. I found utilizing this tool to be helpful not only towards my goals, but also helpful in my healing process. It kept me moving and engaged, but also motivated me to forge ahead.

Stage 2 of my monthly goals is going to have to be heavily modified. Lot's needs to be revised as my direction and focus has changed. Fail or not I am showing up to the kwoon on May 2 to grade and that's all there is to it. I don't care if I show up in a wheel chair, it's happening. I have changed my mindset from I am not ready or this does not meet the school standards; to ready or not here I come whether you like it or not. I tend to be very hard on myself and I set my standards very high. I do understand there is no such thing as perfect, believe me I get that. But I can't stand half effort or no heart or even go on to say no class when I do something I believe in. I understand now though, it's not my place to decide whether the standard is met or not. It's my place to show my Sifu's present at my grading what I've got and show the students of our school what it takes.

My work schedule was supposed to dwindle down after this past weekend of 12 hour shifts and float into a Monday to Friday rotation which was supposed to blend together quite well from now to the beginning of May. However, if you have watched the news today and have heard what has happened, you will understand it will be a crazy next while as we were faced with a major draw back. Fortunately, and ultimately, everyone went home and to me that's all that matters.

I have a big challenge ahead of me if I am to be prepared for May. I have to pretty much start at the beginning of my training and ramp up substantially if I am even going to stand a chance. Between my relentless work hours and life in general this is going to be tough. Good, at this point in my Kung Fu this might be just what the doctor ordered. Keep you in the loop as I go. See you at the kwoon.