The Live Effect

I finally watched the demo video tonight. I have been staying away from this for a few reasons. Of course the main reason is I don't like to see my self on video or pictures when it comes to Kung Fu. Not because I don't like to actually look at myself and see what I'm doing. Nor am I against its huge contribution to better yourself and fix your problems by actually seeing the mistakes you feel when you can't see yourself. If that makes any sense at all. The problem is I go to extreme criticism on myself and never seem to be satisfied with what I see. The first thing I seen right away was not breaking the first board. Man, how could I possibly have missed that one. But as I watched I seen the board go up instead of recoiling back and snapping effortlessly. Which tells me the board was too high and I was too far away. I see my leg is almost fully extended at the contact point instead of completing the kick through the board. Watching my sais form was not a good feeling at all. I practiced my form many times before the demo and did that ankle hook and release spin over a 100 times and seldom missed. I haven't felt good about dropping my weapon at all. All my stances were cut short and incomplete, especially the changing of the open x's 180 degrees. When I went from the right lead to the left, instead of a left lead open x I came up into almost a bow stance and then the rest just kind of fell apart from there. There is just something about a live demo that seems to make me go way too fast and not complete parts of the form. Similar things happened at the Chinese new year. Incomplete stances and techniques. Then I feel like I let everyone down and put a blemish on all they're hard work. Just a perspective anyways, I'm sure we all feel that way at one time or another. I don't really feel overly nervous but perhaps that must be the case. Something else to work on I guess. That and continue to work on my form and get in more reps until I can do it in my sleep. Well enough about that, I could go on but I'll keep that to myself.

On a happier note, tonight Eva and I biked 7 km and once we arrived home we did push ups and hsieh chein together. I really enjoy getting out and biking down the trails and listening to my little one talk non stop the whole time telling me what's what and following it up with a thousand questions. I wouldn't trade it for the world. See you at the kwoon.